Thursday, 1 May 2014

The Future Is Already Haunting Us

Sitting in a cafe in Amsterdam, I was having afternoon tea with my friends, with a beautiful view of the canal by our window. We were casually chatting, when my friend brought up something that led to a deeper conversation. The topic was philosophy, and she'd mentioned a particular quote, which goes along the lines of:

'Live for today, for tomorrow may not come.'

(photo taken by me in Amsterdam)

Now, you may think - cliche. But we could actually learn something from this. I've always lived my life in a way where the future is haunting us. I'm told to plan my next step and think about what I'm going to do after I leave university, etc, etc. It's hard to ignore, when everyone around you is constantly badgering you with questions of:

'What do you want to do after graduation?'

'What jobs are you going to look for?'

'What are you going to do with that degree?'

It's frustrating. Ever since I was a young girl, I've always found it difficult to make decisions. I'm impulsive - so when I make a decision, I suddenly change my mind and switch to something else, and in turn, annoy whoever is involved in the decision. (oops)

So you can imagine my sheer frustration when I get asked about my future career. All I know right now is that I'd like to go into journalism, because I love writing, or teaching, because I love working with children. But if that's even possible, or if I'm even going to take the necessary steps after I graduate, I really don't know.

Because I'm a dreamer. I always imagine myself somewhere else instead of where I am now. In lectures, I imagine I'm standing in the exciting metropolis of New York or classy Paris. When I walk the familiar streets of London, my heart constantly wishes for the thrill of exploring a new city or country. Yes, I really do have the worst case of wanderlust.

When I graduate, I don't want to fall into the trap of job-hunting and wailing about how broke I am on social networks. I want to be as free as a bird, finally released into the wild after years of being in the captivity of education. Getting out there, doing whatever my heart desires. Be that travelling, blogging, writing, reading, trying out new things, getting out of my comfort zone.

I want to chase my dreams. I want to live in the now. I want to create memories in the now. I don't want to let the future haunt me; it might not even come. Today is a gift, and I want to explore and make my own story. Maybe I'll figure out what I want to do along the way. It's just not right now.



  1. I totally know how you feel, this was a fantastic post, loved reading it!
    Life is about chasing dreams really, and doing what you have to to be happy :)

    x leah symonne x

  2. If i can offer one bit of advice for you it's to go travel a bit the moment you graduate. Even if it's just for two weeks- get out and go see a new country. You'll come back feeling so grounded and really understanding what matters in life. That's what I did and all those stresses of the future just melted away- you'll get to where you're meant to be when you get there :)

    xo marlen
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